i met you in a coffee shop
at the beginning of January
there was something about you
that made me question my sanity
you told me you could take me places
i wouldn’t imagine of going
so i held your hand,
and we took off.
there was something reckless about you
something oddly challenging
so i took you up like a puzzle
only to realize later that you were a time grenade
with sharp edges
like a broken glass doll
but i didn’t realize what you were
until there were shards poking my skin
you kicked me out
onto forbidden territory
and when i cried out of fear
you walked away into a crimson sunset
pretending to be a 80’s cowboy villain
it was too late before you realized
that i had stopped crying
my mouth was no longer drinking tears that you spilt
it had become a gun
and before you could turn around
to realize that i was now stronger because of you
we were back at the coffee shop where we first met
and YOU were crying
begging
telling me that you love me
asking me to not leave you
i thanked you
and told you that I loved you
but i loved me more
and so i stood up and left.
mic drop
ash
{commentary from the one who writes~}
so this poem basically sums up 2018 for me in a nutshell. 2018 was one of those years which I will always look back on and remember when I’m older. This year for me was particularly harsh and challenging. It threw me out of my comfort zone and made me do accomplish things i was initially afraid of trying.
the whole year felt like a rollercoaster. it threw me and tossed me to unfamiliar edges and dragged me down before I could even take a breath. there were so many downfalls, so many valleys in this year that I almost never got a chance to climb my mountains. there were times that made me feel extremely horrible about myself but after a while i began to find a source to love myself and this small source slowly materialised into a self sufficient dose that made me feel comfortable and content in my own skin and that was when I finally could take a breath and let me tell you, it felt amazing to breathe, after sinking for what felt like an eternity.
I wanted to write something different for a year end post so I personified 2018 into an ex lover who brought out the best in me whilst making me a self loathing person that had no respect for herself. but gradually I began to learn and grow from all the mistakes I made till I could have a stand for myself and didn’t need anyone to love me because I was so full of self love and began to wear my scars like medals.
2018 was a year that taught me to be stronger and more confident in myself. It was a year that made me self sufficient. It gave me answers. 2019 is the year to make the most of things I now know and go looking for more questions.
a very happy new year to everyone. i hope 2019 brings out the best in you and you find the things you were always looking for :)))
beautifully written ash😘😘💖
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Thank you so much ❤️
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That was good…you made me laugh twice, him walking away like an 80s cowboy 😝 and mic drop..lol I might use mic drop..lollGood luck in the New Year..
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Haha thank you have an amazing year 🙂
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Mic drop
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Really appreciate your openness on this. I hope 2019 holds hope, warmth, and laughter in store for you!
Happy New Year! 🍾🎉🥂
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Thank you so much! I hope you have an amazing 2019 and find everything that you’re looking for :)))
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THIS IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL&WARM THING ON INTERNET in ages!exactly what i needed 😭❤
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Ah thank you that means a lot I’m glad you liked it :)))
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It was so well written. Lot of people talk about how good or bad their year went but in a very general way, you on the other hand personified your journey of in a year that of the journey you might go through your ex partner. You not only gave a glimpse over how your year went by and what you expect to find in the upcoming year but you also enlightened us over how we need to prioritize ourselves and learn love ourselves at the foremost. Shot two goals with one arrow!
I hope you have an amazing 2019 ahead and may you find all the desired answers to your questions the upcoming year too! ❤
XOXO
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this is such an amazing and uplifting comment you might have just inspired me to write posts consistently all throughout 2019 thank you so much!!!!!! I hope you have an amazing and enthralling 2019 ❤️❤️❤️
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Loved this!
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I’m glad you liked it 🙂
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