Winter was comfortable in town a few weeks ago, now it has packed it’s bags and is long gone. Days are warmer now, and don’t require me to be huddled in my blanket. My new academic year has begun, and my usual days include me listening to lofi hip hop music and studying or getting lost scrolling through my social media. Life is getting to it’s usual boring pace.
I’ve been reading The Best Of Me by Nicholas Sparks for over three weeks now. Usually it doesn’t take me more than a week to finish a book and I hate that I keep procrastinating things I love so one day I just kept everything aside and read the book for three hours straight and finished it. It’s not my first time reading a novel for hours straight, but I’d done it after such a long time it worries me how far I kept the things I love. People and blogging included.
The last couple of weeks, I was trying to write a poem about a moment that I treasure, a moment that explained how easily I fell in love with things and people but all the words I wrote didn’t do justice to it and I got so frustrated in the end I didn’t feel like writing at all. It made me want to break things including myself just so that I could rebuild them with a different perspective. I realised that my mindless scrolling through my phone limited me a lot and I started taking time away from it hoping no one would notice. It’s crazy how transparent and predictable social media makes us. I’ve always had the habit of keeping myself at a distance from things just to get an idea about the bigger picture. I always stop to slyly observe people and make mental notes about the things i find invariant. But sometimes people notice that I’m a little beyond and question things I have no answers to. How do I explain why I like understanding people better when words aren’t included and that I need the distance to figure things out for myself?
I’m going to try and get into a regular pace of writing again, this was just a mini update about how the last weeks were. I hope you’re doing well, have an amazing week :)))