Life Update

a little distance

Winter was comfortable in town a few weeks ago, now it has packed it’s bags and is long gone. Days are warmer now, and don’t require me to be huddled in my blanket. My new academic year has begun, and my usual days include me listening to lofi hip hop music and studying or getting lost scrolling through my social media. Life is getting to it’s usual boring pace.

I’ve been reading The Best Of Me by Nicholas Sparks for over three weeks now. Usually it doesn’t take me more than a week to finish a book and I hate that I keep procrastinating things I love so one day I just kept everything aside and read the book for three hours straight and finished it. It’s not my first time reading a novel for hours straight, but I’d done it after such a long time it worries me how far I kept the things I love. People and blogging included.

The last couple of weeks, I was trying to write a poem about a moment that I treasure, a moment that explained how easily I fell in love with things and people but all the words I wrote didn’t do justice to it and I got so frustrated in the end I didn’t feel like writing at all. It made me want to break things including myself just so that I could rebuild them with a different perspective. I realised that my mindless scrolling through my phone limited me a lot and I started taking time away from it hoping no one would notice. It’s crazy how transparent and predictable social media makes us. I’ve always had the habit of keeping myself at a distance from things just to get an idea about the bigger picture. I always stop to slyly observe people and make mental notes about the things i find invariant. But sometimes people notice that I’m a little beyond and question things I have no answers to. How do I explain why I like understanding people better when words aren’t included and that I need the distance to figure things out for myself?

I’m going to try and get into a regular pace of writing again, this was just a mini update about how the last weeks were. I hope you’re doing well, have an amazing week :)))

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8 thoughts on “a little distance

  1. This was so beautiful, thank you for sharing. Distancing yourself is never a bad thing if it’s what you feel like you need to do in order to breathe, I think in the grand scheme of things it makes us realise how small our problems actually are when we look at the bigger picture – the world is so vast .xx

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  2. Hey, beautiful writing.
    And I can relate to it so well in the mind space that I am in currently. Not the novel reading bit tho. The last couple of weeks, I have been unsuccessfully trying to set up a routine for myself, even thou I’m on holiday (technically). I get very frustrated not knowing what my day holds that I don’t feel like getting out of my blanket. I am just huddled up in there mindless scrolling through my phone. I completely understand and can relate to it where you say – It’s crazy how transparent and predictable social media makes us.

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    1. During my mini vacation I hated that my day was unproductively spent scrolling on my phone. As a coping mechanism I decided a time slot to check my phone and tried to check my phone only thrice a day for 15 minutes each and managed to do all the things I love and enjoy doing. making a list of things you want to achieve that day helps too :)) let me know if it works for you too :))

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  3. Distancing yourself is not bad. I’m sure you would know it better than me. Sometimes you just need a ‘me’ time and not a ‘we’ time.
    You are right you need to be farther away to see everything at large in clarity.
    XOXO

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  4. This happens to me, too. Sometimes, you just need to take time away from certain things and regain balance. It really helps to come back fresh and with a bang. Take your time! Hope you have a great week ahead!

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