Life Update

sweeter 17

yesterday the world turned the same, and I turned seventeen. I’ll be honest, I never pictured myself turning beyond sixteen years old, not that I thought I’d die by then, I just didn’t know what would unfold once my 16th year was over. I still don’t.

It was 11pm, an hour inching closer to my 17th year. I always thought it was silly that people called you at midnight to wish you happy birthday because I was born at 7 am. All of me wanted to switch of my phone and throw it into a dark corner of my cupboard, because I knew my phone would keep buzzing and there was nothing I hated more. There are times like these when I just want to be alone. Without anyone or anything. So I kept my phone in a corner and did things I love. Updated my playlist for my bus rides, chilled the room and found a book to read.

My phone started buzzing at 11:30pm because apparently wishing someone on their birthday is a 21st century competition among adolescents. It didn’t stop ringing till 1:00 am and since I thought it would be rude to not pick up a call on my birthday, I answered all 22 calls within that time span. It was insane how many calls I took because usually due to my anxiety I just ignore my phone and let it buzz in a corner of my bag.

The 16th year of your life was supposed to be ‘sweet’ and the 18th year was supposed to be when you shouldered your responsibilities but I had no idea what my 17th year would be, being in the middle of innocence and a sudden push to adulthood, till my mom showed me my birthday cake and on it was written – have a sweeter seventeen ~

I’m the kind of person who’s extremely excited about her birthday but as the days inch closer to it, it dawns on me how quickly time is passing and I fall down a sad boy hours rabbit hole. But that line on my birthday cake got a smile on my face and filled me with this feeling I have no name for. But I was grateful for it. Grateful for the people I have, the things I’ve achieved and the person I’ve become. I’ve started loving the person I’ve become and I’ve grown, and honestly that’s all I could ask for. I honestly have no idea what this year has for me in store, but I’ll try to make the best of everything.

Mic drop

Ash

Ps my birthday was on 13th I posted this a day late (oops)

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15 thoughts on “sweeter 17

  1. Happy birthday!
    Your birthday is just a date which marks that you are growing but most important is that you grow in every dimension and you have achieved so much in that aspect! It’s an important year though so all the very best and don’t forget have fun!!!
    XOXO

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