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this silhouette of uncertainty has defeated the monster under my bed in a knife fight

The clouds have been gathering in the sky a lot often nowadays and they’re usually the highlight of my day. It looked like cotton candy today. Each second gets heavier by the moment, since I’ve started registering for my university entrance exams it becomes more apparent to me how real all of this is. I…… Continue reading this silhouette of uncertainty has defeated the monster under my bed in a knife fight

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27.05.20 – a day in pictures

Reading before I start with the day is one of my favourite habits :)) started reading Howl’s Moving Castle, a Ghibli movie is adapted on this book with the same title. watered all my plant children and tilled the soil so they could breathe easier through the roots. the sky is the thing I miss…… Continue reading 27.05.20 – a day in pictures

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things i need at 11:37 pm on a Tuesday night

i want to sit in an over crowded train in this humid weather near a window and try to read the book in my hands over the loud chatter of many voices to have a swinging competition with El in the garden of my apartment premises till we both feel nauseous and decide to walk…… Continue reading things i need at 11:37 pm on a Tuesday night

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here and there, somewhere

As I’m writing this down I’m listening to the instrumental version of the OST from Spirited Away, and even though there are no lyrics, I somehow still understand, the song is just that powerful and I think everyone should listen to it so click here if you want to. It’s called the Name of Life.…… Continue reading here and there, somewhere

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dim surroundings and some silence

Do you have days where nothing goes wrong but you’re just blank and low? Not the sad kind of low, but the kind where you want everything to be in dim lighting and quiet. Less than the sound of a pin drop. I would love to be one of those people who is making the…… Continue reading dim surroundings and some silence

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day 21 of quarantine: my brain cells are revolting against me

the world has come to an abrupt halt. being a person who hates routine, I’m literally being pushed into it with life pointing a knife to my back, and i have self sabotaging feelings throughout the day at 15 minute intervals. i’m clearly not adjusting well to a slow paced way, in fact i’m giving…… Continue reading day 21 of quarantine: my brain cells are revolting against me

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self quarantine, day 5 – restless days and a flicker of persistent hope

I haven’t stepped out of my house since 18th March, and I miss the feeling of the sun on my skin. If corona hadn’t broken out and forced a lock down, Egg and I would’ve been in the same state today. it’s been almost a year since I’ve seen her. if she would be here…… Continue reading self quarantine, day 5 – restless days and a flicker of persistent hope

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staying in, trying to breathe calmer

so i took a break from blogging because of various things, but mainly because i’d try to remove one thought out of my head and four more would fall out and it was starting to get really frustrating at a point. i would sit down in front of my laptop determined, the blinking cursor seemed…… Continue reading staying in, trying to breathe calmer

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literally having 2020 vision haha

Here’s something about winters, they make me sleepy and sad, but not the depressed kind of sad, but the gloomy kind of sad. The kind of sad that makes me want to switch my phone off, make the room dark and stare at the ceiling for hours. I’m a stereotypical winter lover, I wear fluffy…… Continue reading literally having 2020 vision haha

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a list of moments and feelings

the feeling after you finish a really good book, and the urge to read the book for the first time againwhen you say goodbye to someone you know you won’t see again for a long timehaving a hot shower after a long, sad dayrunning and catching a bus that you thought you’d misslistening to a…… Continue reading a list of moments and feelings

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here’s everything i thought about today

I got up an hour before my alarm rings because of a bad dream and tried to forget it. I thought about how much I wanted to forget that but couldn’t and yet I thought about it every hour of the day. After waking up I thought about the chocolate chip cookies and I thought…… Continue reading here’s everything i thought about today

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little by little, she moves forward

The days are getting colder by the day and if you have a blanket as soft and fluffy as the fricking clouds you would know how difficult it is to un-tuck yourself from the bed in the morning when you’re in the most perfect sleeping condition and it feels like all the planets have aligned…… Continue reading little by little, she moves forward

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winter murders my productivity

The sunsets have started happening sooner and the days have gotten colder and my intentions of getting out of my bed and doing anything productive have diminished GREATLY. The human race is so evolved and yet we couldn’t include hibernation in our seasonal changes list. This is what a human winter change list should ideally…… Continue reading winter murders my productivity