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I wait for my body to feel like a body

a grocery list of things my mind has been full of the last couple of days: simultaneously learning 2 languages is heroic and also v v stressfulI cried while listening to happy songs for no apparent reason, felt holy laterstopped reading 3 books and started a fourth onehave wanted to do things, but then haven’t…… Continue reading I wait for my body to feel like a body

Poetry

a monologue about a winter poem that was written at 1 AM

i hate lukewarm coffee but the climate has a personal vendetta against the steam in my ceramic cup sigh. i thought she was sleeping until she said “want me to warm your coffee for you?” somehow, she always knows even though she realises  that i’ll forget to drink it warm again i like the borrowed…… Continue reading a monologue about a winter poem that was written at 1 AM

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juggling through moderate hell

These days everything overwhelms me. I’m not sure if this is a good thing. There’s clutter everywhere and even though I pick things up and organise them every once in a while, the unstructured ghost, the stuff of nightmare, tumbles everything. It’s tedious to look at things unorganised, but there’s nothing I can do about…… Continue reading juggling through moderate hell

Life Update

turbulence

It’s been 9 months since the apocalypse materialised (or the public knowledge of it) and 12 days since 2021 began. I look at my hands and see 2 palms and 10 fingers and about a 100 crisscrossing lines and then I put them in my pocket or tug the backpack because lord do I not…… Continue reading turbulence

Poetry

prescription: swallow a minimum of 27 words a day

it goes something like (you’re walking home) (and all of a sudden you hear the wind chimes in someone’s window) (you focus on it long enough to realise you swallowed at least 84 words today) (you looked but you didn’t really see things) (they love you but they won’t tell you, but they love you)…… Continue reading prescription: swallow a minimum of 27 words a day

Life Update

pineapple trauma and feeling uncharted things – august

My favourite way to start a blog post usually is by recapping a sky observation, but as sad as it may sound, I’ve forgotten to look out my window. Things have been, scattered, and I have, been blindfolded. Today in my creative writing class our teacher gave us an impromptu question, she gave us the…… Continue reading pineapple trauma and feeling uncharted things – august

Life Update

I want to make a home out of this feeling

Since the last couple weeks, I’ve been waking up everyday in the belief that the truth is something I’ve made up because my brain just won’t register the fact that something like this could happen to me outside of the daydream I built in my head. A few weeks ago I got accepted into my…… Continue reading I want to make a home out of this feeling

Poetry

something about july – a poem

something about grief having soft hands because she knows pain / something about the diagonally falling rain / something about my blanket being the best shoulder to cry on / something about making my parents proud / something about coming first in English and finding an even bigger void to fill / something about getting…… Continue reading something about july – a poem

Life Update

this silhouette of uncertainty has defeated the monster under my bed in a knife fight

The clouds have been gathering in the sky a lot often nowadays and they’re usually the highlight of my day. It looked like cotton candy today. Each second gets heavier by the moment, since I’ve started registering for my university entrance exams it becomes more apparent to me how real all of this is. I…… Continue reading this silhouette of uncertainty has defeated the monster under my bed in a knife fight

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a new but forever type of favourite: studio ghibli 🌿

You know when you’re having those gloomy days but then there are certain people/things that pull away all those dark clouds from over your head like a fishing rod that finally caught the fish? That’s studio ghibli movies for me currently. They absolutely warm my heart. Studio Ghibli is a Japanese animation film studio and…… Continue reading a new but forever type of favourite: studio ghibli 🌿

photographs

27.05.20 – a day in pictures

Reading before I start with the day is one of my favourite habits :)) started reading Howl’s Moving Castle, a Ghibli movie is adapted on this book with the same title. watered all my plant children and tilled the soil so they could breathe easier through the roots. the sky is the thing I miss…… Continue reading 27.05.20 – a day in pictures

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things i need at 11:37 pm on a Tuesday night

i want to sit in an over crowded train in this humid weather near a window and try to read the book in my hands over the loud chatter of many voices to have a swinging competition with El in the garden of my apartment premises till we both feel nauseous and decide to walk…… Continue reading things i need at 11:37 pm on a Tuesday night

Life Update

here and there, somewhere

As I’m writing this down I’m listening to the instrumental version of the OST from Spirited Away, and even though there are no lyrics, I somehow still understand, the song is just that powerful and I think everyone should listen to it so click here if you want to. It’s called the Name of Life.…… Continue reading here and there, somewhere